Posted by Tracey ( Dak)
on February 21, 2008, 5:24 pm, in reply to "Another broken Mom"
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Debra, our stories are the the same. I sway between knowing deep in my heart that god has a purpose in everything that he does, to completley not understanding how he could take away such a beautiful boy full of life and loved by so many. I feal Phillip walking with me everyday and I know he dosnt want me to be sad. I have no doubt he is a far better place than me. And I also know its not my time yet Godhas a plan , If I hadnd it over to him he will make his will clear to me,.I learnt very quickly that every minute we have cunts and I prayer for the stenght to not miss any of them. My children are the most important thing in this world to me. I have had the most testing 2 years anybody could imagine, I would write I book but no one wuld believe me.Seriously they wouldnt. But losing Phil is the icing on the cake . Ithink of the story of Job and try to understand what it is God wants for me . Im sure like many of you we are still counting days Im at 70 days today. and not a second goes past were I dont think Of Phil in some way. You force youself to be focused, and I have so much legal stuff to deal with. I wonder when it will end , so I try and do a little each day, iF i do to much I have a panic attack. Love yourself daily even the little things count.
tracey
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