Posted by Ruth
on February 23, 2008, 7:52 pm, in reply to "We have no Answers"
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My heart resonates with what both of you have said. In order for me to learn to live with Lisa's homegoing, I have to focus on the Lord and that He is good even when it hurts so much. but for Lisa it doesn't hurt anymore, I spend lots of time imagining what it's like in heaven, what she looks like now with her new body, what she is doing, and ho terribly happy she is now.
I still slip back and forth between the joy that exists for her now and the pain we feel. It's still unreal alot of the time. We keep saying How can this be? How can she be gone?
I know for sure it was best for her and I envy her now, whereas before I ached for the suffering she had to go through. Her life was so very difficult here on earth. But now she is free so free!! But I miss her so much, I am so lonely for her. I long to hear her voice and talk with her. I long to sing with her again and can't wait to sing standing beside her before our Father's throne. I can't wait to hear the music in heaven. It must be glorious!.
Do you ladies find that people don't bring up the name of our children anymore? It's like a taboo to bring up the subject? It bothers me, rarely does anyone acknowledge the loss we feel, as if time as passed and life just goes on. Our loss is a permanent, it doesn't resolve ever. Not til we get there too.
Ruth
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