Posted by Tracey
on March 3, 2008, 4:05 am, in reply to "dark days"
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Hi debra, My son was only 18 years old and very much a mummys boy , I didnt find out about the accident which only happened a few km from our home for 5 hrs, .Unfortunatly one of my down falls is that to ubderstand I need to know everything, in a way this gives me peace. Phil died at the scene and instantly. , I have lots of wonderful memories, even the last time he spoke to me. He kissed me good night everynight, and if he called me regardless of what it was for he would always say I love you mum. I spent alot of time with him after he died and feel fortunate with that. My darkest moments come when I flash back to seeing him for the forst time afer, He was totally untouched, by the accident. My other darkest moment is seeing the pain in my kids, and especially his older brother as they were very close. it tears me apart Somedays it just seems like a dream and someones going to wake me up. I went back to work today first time, it was such an out of body experience, yhats the only way I can describe it. When i remeember that God has purpose and that Mary felt the pain of losing her son, even though she fely blessed to have him, I relate to that.
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