Posted by Jo
on March 30, 2008, 5:45 pm, in reply to "film of grief"
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Debra, I feel and understand your pain....I am feeling the affects of Shawn's anniversary coming up in May. I told my boss that I have to take May 12th off, it's on a Monday.....and thank the LORD for leap year this year or his anniversary date would be on Mother's day. That would be too much to take. I hope to spend that day with my only son left. I don't know how much energy I will have though. I feel so exhausted and I feel like I just want to run away........I haven't seen my son since January as the weather has been too icy or snowy to drive the 3 hours.....I miss them so much.....Shawn's 4 year old Skyler lives 2 hours away and I haven't seen them for 2 months either....We talk on the phone but it isn't the same....
I get very lonely, depressed, and miss my kiddo soooo much!!!! Work never seems to end....it distracts me for a little bit and helps me pass the time.....but I know I'm probably not the best that I can be because I am too sad.... I feel there is not much purpose anymore, even though I have my 2 grandchildren and my other son. It seems as though life is very empty and I just exist from day to day.....
From one Mom to another I'm sure you know what I'm talking about.....You are in my prayers Debra, as our sons were the same age!
Jo
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