Posted by patti
on June 12, 2008, 9:47 pm
64.190.239.103
It has been two years for me now since Bobby's death, and I am still way upset and crying my heart out like it happened yesterday. So much so that I am embarassed that my kids and husband still see me so distraught, but my life will never be the same again! I will never know complete joy again, not ever on this earth! And no one but you guys understand that. I have had a new grandson, who we named Bobby, and my grandchildren are wonderful, but nothing, absolutely nothing can bring back my joy, my peace, my happiness. It is just gone for good. Yes, I trust in God, and yes I have to know that He has His reasons, and it is His will that dictates our lives, but do I like it, do I accept it, NO!
And the world has completely gone to hell in a hand basket! There is sin and suffering and pain everywhere I look. And what can we do about it - NOTHING! Such awful terrible things are going on in the world, and I for one just want to go Home. I sometimes think that I HAVE to live a long, long time to take care of my kids and my grandchildren, but in reality, I don't want to. They can just handle it themselves. It is getting too overwhelming for me.
I want the days back when Bobby was just a little boy and Big Bird and Ernie were our closest friends and reading books by Dr. Sueus was the most important thing I had to do.
I am tired of fighting the battle just to lose my most precious possessions.
I am venting. Does any of this make sense?
Patti
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