Posted by Patti
on August 7, 2008, 8:04 pm, in reply to "Thank you God"
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It is exaclty 28 months today since Bobby died, and right at this minute I am so hysterical, out of my mind sobbing with grief. What is wrong with me? Why can't I just quit crying? I am 100 years old.
My grandchildren (Bobby three kids) gave me the most wonderful present last week. Bobby had some old, old home movies that his Dad gave him of me and Bobby together when Bobby was five years old. They had the home movies made into a DVD for me. It is 20 minutes of pure happiness. I praise God for those times. I was so blessed and so happy. If you guys could see how beautiful he was, it would amaze you. I get so hysterical with grief after watching it and just collapse. Watching me and him together, being so happy, breaks my heart because those days are gone forever and he is gone forever and I am left here alone with nothing but a movie hold.
I tried grief counseling early on, but maybe it was too early for me. I think now that if I am ever going to be normal, I am going to have to start going again. I just don't know what else to do.
Love to all of you. Please bear with me through these dark days.
Patti
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