Posted by Patti
on August 18, 2008, 5:59 pm, in reply to "Re: Feeling so lost"
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Hi Kathy,
My son, Robert Baker (Bobby) also died when he was 36 years old. It was two years ago in a car crash in Tampa, Florida, but I hurt just as much today as I did the night he died. So, I know exactly how much you are hurting right now. Has it been very long since you son died, although it doesn't matter because time literally stand still.
I know you must have asked God a million times why did it happen to your son? Death of a child leaves a giant hole in your heart that can never be fixed, and there is nothing we can do but suffer through the rest of our lives. But someday we will be re-united with our boys!
My younger brother died when he was 36 also, just three weeks after my mother had passed away. Now, knowing what I know, I am so grateful to God that my mother was spared from the death of her child. It would have killed her.
I sometimes am amazed that I have survived this, and sometimes quite frankly, I do not want to survive. Then I think of all the additional heartbreak my family would go through if something were to happen to me, and I am grateful that I am surviving.
Please visit my son's website and listen to the song that plays. Since our sons were the same age, I am sure you will relate to the words of the song. I wrote it about Bobby and me and our very special relationship. http://bobby-baker.memory-of.com/About.aspx
Do you have other children and was your son your oldest? What was his name? I am so deeply sorry for the loss of your precious child. Everyone else looks at our sons and they remember the adult, the young man, but if you are like me, he was always your precious little boy. Such a precious gift that God gave us for 36 years. I am so grateful for all that time every single year was special. So many of the mothers on this website had a lot less time than that with their child. But I was counting on him being here with me until I died.
I will keep you in my prayers.
Don't forget to listen to the song on Bobby's website ( http://bobby-baker.memory-of.com/About.aspx). You will relate to those times when your son was young and you were so proud to just be his mom.
Love to you. Patti
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