Posted by trish
on December 5, 2008, 9:20 am, in reply to "Re: Struggling with so much"
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i'm reading the pain in all your voices,,,its such a reflection of mine,,and that phrase...I WANT MY FAMILY BACK.... is so true,when my first child died a lady came to me and stressed that i should not forget my other 2 boys,,she forgot her other children and husband and lost everything,,they all eventually left her..her biggest regret....obviously i didn't listen at first i was sooo consumed in grief and guilt..i almost did loose it all...but my husband .the great man he is put aside his grief and was there for the boys and me.the minister kept us talking..and we made it stronger then ever...mind you my boys were 6 and 8 at the time..it took about 3 years to work thru the guilt and an attempt to end the pain to see the light of what i still had..this time i'm spending my energy on my only son left..i don't want him to ever think he is not treasured...it is not easy i'm sooo tired and just want to crawl in a hole..part of me want him and his girlfriend to get married so i can wallow in my grief...but the other part doesn't want an empty house...so i understand fully of what you guys are going thru..and i PRAY that you will get the strenght to reach out to your' other family members..your sons or daughters...let them know they are not 2nd to the child you lost...easier said then done i know....praying for you...trish
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