Posted by trish
on February 15, 2009, 10:51 pm
76.69.103.223
i just needed to talk tonite about my forgotten memory..my husband and i were going for a drive today..it was a beautiful day..we went to the falls, just to drive around...this memory came to me as we were talking about the hiking we use to do with the boys..i was telling my husband about the time we hiked the gorge with the boys...my youngest christopher was in a backpack on my hubby's back..as we finally got back to the top we all started laughing cause my little one was huffing and puffing just like his dad...and blurtted out ha ha done me tired...mind you he had the best ride in the house..i was laughing as i was talking to ed about the memory, then out of nowhere i just brokedown and started crying...i felt sooo overwhelmed...i could remeber christopher's face so clear and his smile ..it cought me off guard....iv'e been soo grieving matt...i guess my baby was put in the back burner......cause there wasn't a day that went by i didn't have a thought cross my mind of him...i guess my brain can't handle both right now....i find i can talk about them...but not think about them...you know what i mean?...and i'm sitting here tonite with a massive headache..thinking about both...its soooo hard..i want to shut my mind off...i don't know how..tonite is the first time in a long time you feel you can't go on..this is too crazy of a life to live....but i know i must....God give me strength to see tomorro...help me sleep...
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