Posted by Rose
on March 12, 2009, 10:46 am, in reply to "Didn't get to say goodbye! :o("
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We all have had similar circumstances it seems. Dave died in the hospital before I arrived. I know he actually died at home, because they couldn't revive him and they worked on him for 1 1/2 hours. My son Chris and my husband were at the hospital before me and when I got there he was gone....No..no time to say goodbye...that was a Friday. Dave had just come home with his new baby on Wed., i spoke to him that night, he said to me.."mom, i cannot tell you how happy I am, how this baby makes me feel.", I said, I know Dave..and you know, you will ALWAYS feel like that..that is how I still feel about you"...those wer my last words to my son...BUT...he always knew how I felt and I knew how he felt about me....DAve lived for 30 years. We all have the amount of time allotted...Unfortunately for us...this was too short of a time...I have those bad dreams and I have some when I dream of Dave and he does let me know he is ok...I KNOW he is ok...I wish that I could give you what I know in my heart and mind...everything happens for a reason and we are not alone...God has a future for us...this life is temporary..and although the pain is great and i am not minimizing it..believe me...i greive every day, i cry everyday...i know God has not abandoned me...there is evil in this world everyday...Satan's time is short...we will see our children again...I will live my life as God intended and bear the burden of the loss....I feel that all happens for a reason and for me..i have turned to the Lord for my comfort...he IS there...He will never leave you or forsake you. I have stopped asking why..because I am no different then anyone else..there is tons of suffering in this world...it tests our faith. Another good thing is to find a charity or something you can put your time into to help others..that can help also....I don't know you, but I love you. we have a common bond that we never asked for....who would want this...your life changed forever, your heart broken....but Christ died for us...and I don't know who else could possibly help me through this and through my life...my husband can't, my children can't...i have to rely on Him and that He knows what He is doing....
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