Posted by Ruth
on September 21, 2009, 4:28 pm
174.0.40.155
It was Lisa's third Birthday in Heaven yesterday, can't believe how the time has flown already and still shake my head at the reality of it all. I am thankful for all the support I have to help us cope. Now begins the "countdown" to the anniversary when she died. We really miss her so much. We will miss her until we're reunited with her. Yesterday in church there was an elderly lady must be in her 80's, she just lost her daughter to complications of cancer, and I was immediately drawn to her nd give her a hug. It felt good to connect and give comfort to by understanding her pain more so than most people do that haven't experienced it. That was the highlight of my day. Although our children our in heaven and gloriously happy, it still hurts not to have them in our life anymore.
It was interesting to me how our worship leader picked two songs to sing that meant so much to us at Lisa's passing. The worship leader didn't know it was Lisa's Birthday. conincidence?? I think not. I know God does these things and reassures us of His love and compassion for us.
It's amazing how I am much more in tune and notice the things that God does . It absolutely amazes me and humbles me. He is so real and I thank Him for so much even when it hurts. I take nothing as coincidence anymore. He is in the little things as well as the big things that happen. That's how much he cares about you and me on an individual basis.
I still have my ups and downs as I try to live one day at a time.this past summer I had a really rough spell and I feared for my sanity, But God rescued me with a phone call from my sister-in -law, who listened to the pain in my heart and let me express it without judgment. That helped me tremendously.
I pray that God will sustain me in the days leading up to Lisa's anniversary. It's always such a tough time as recount and relive every moment.
Ruth
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